Weaving in the Sand How to Stay with God When It Hurts to Believe She tried to build a life on faith. But what do you do when the sermons sound holy, yet the leaders fail behind closed doors? When the baby—one week and four days overdue—is born without breath? When you’re married in title but alone in experience? And when God—your last refuge—goes silent? With earnest hands, she tried to weave a life of meaning—stitching together duty, belief, and sacrifice. But like patterns drawn in the sand, it all seemed to slip away. Over time, she discovered something unexpected: faith is not always built on stone. Sometimes, it’s formed in the very uncertainties we try to escape. In this deeply reflective and emotionally raw journey, Weaving in the Sand explores what it means to hold onto faith when life unravels. Told through journal entries, spiritual awakenings, and surreal encounters with angels, creatures, and silence itself, this story follows one woman’s struggle to stay grounded in a world that offers no firm place to stand. Raised between cultures. Marked by a father’s absence—both loud and quiet. Wounded by religion. Weighed down by invisible expectations. Slowly, she learns to listen in new ways—not for loud miracles, but for the whispers hidden in pain, memory, and breath. This book is for anyone who has ever felt unseen, unchosen, or unheard—and who still dares to hope that God is present, even when nothing makes sense.