Loser. Thug. Abuser. Stupid. Worthless.    Insults play on repeat in The Husband's brain. He has been bullied and abused. An affair by The Wife, the one person The Husband loved the most, leaves him standing in a dark basement with a homemade noose around his neck.   As The Husband struggles silently through the anguish of betrayal and divorce, he turns inward to face a host of past tormentors and confront The Creator. One way or another, The Boy inside him will stop the pain. This honest, vulnerable memoir will reshape our discussion of the victims of divorce and mental illness.