But gradually, I began to feel this dawning awareness that womanhood was coming for me, that it was looming inevitably, and it didn''t feel safe... While those around me tried to expedite it, simulate it, exacerbate it, I tried to strangle it with swift, determined efficiency; I stopped eating. In this profound and honest memoir, actress and activist Evanna Lynch confronts the conflict at the very core of her being: an eternal war between reaching towards perfection and fearless creativity. She has long-been viewed as a role model for recovering anorexics and the story of her casting as Luna Lovegood in the Harry Potter films has reached almost mythic proportions. Here, she confronts all the complexities and contradictions within herself and unearths her greatest fear: womanhood. Raw and compelling, this book showcases a startlingly accomplished new voice examining the very heart of a woman''s relationship with her own body. Refusing to let the darkness of her eating disorder overwhelm her, Evanna chooses the path of creativity and dreaming over one of self-flagellation and the empty pursuit of perfection. She dissolves the grey space between self-loathing and self-love and reaches towards acceptance of the bloody, sensual and messy glory that is the female body. This is a story of learning how to be unafraid to fail, and how that act of courage is the most creatively liberating thing a woman can do.